poetry
almost gone
crystallized raindrops cling to my window
obscuring my view of the dawn
the songs of the first birds
sound like questions
echoing through the dripping city
wet and cold -- that’s why I like it here
why do I have to go?
I wish I could stay forever here
on this brink of leaving
not going till tomorrow
and tomorrow is a hundred miles away
so let’s celebrate tonight
all smiles and laughter
plow the ground for tears
we all know this will have to last me the year
why did it have to come so soon?
here on the edge of tomorrow
so much potential lives here
at the dawn of my journey away
a new day breaking, new adventures
and suddenly it all happens here
I find my place just in time to lose it
see the potential just in time to choose
the other way
seems like I’m always saying goodbye
maybe this time it means something
you know I have to leave tomorrow
is that why you taunt me with what could be?
all these friendships I’ve ached for
connections I’ve prayed for
screamed and wept and danced my pain away for
and it all comes crashing around me
like the tide coming in
enough to drown me
why did they have to wait so long?
maybe it took some time to get used to me
maybe they’re sensing their chance is nearly gone
maybe, like me, they were afraid to reach out
and slowly that fear melted away
why did they have to wait till today?
will it be the same when I return next year?
all I can do is hold on to this day
as long as it lasts